12 seems the start of something new. Even more than 13, which is the beginning of "teen" (although girls seem to be getting scarily more mature earlier than when I was younger). 11 seemed to still have its roots in the early years....stretching back to cradle days. 12 seems more like a branch.... reaching out towards the fullness of bloom when little Jamie will leave home.
Its not just that I have lost the kid's menu. Its that Jamie is now in that strange place where she contemplates both playing with dolls and going to the school dance with a boy. (please insert here the Rodney Atkins song about cleaning his gun).
Jamie is beautiful, intelligent, creative, imaginative, and loyal. All of this works against her in middle school. She cares about justice and how other people are treated, which leads to nothing but misery. She is trying to figure herself out which is impossible and I am trying to figure out what are hormones and what is a serious problem and what I can possibly do about any of it anyway.
But I am so proud of her and could explode and I love her so much it hurts and I pray that she be happy, healthy and whole and that God will give her the strength to overcome my inadequacies as a father.
I so believe our daughters would be the best of friends! And I hear you about your daughter growing up. Bethany just obtained her learner's permit last week. Yikes!
ReplyDeleteI wish they could be.... maybe pen pals?
ReplyDeletemiddle school for girls is so tough. watch out Dad, you are going to turn around and she will be all grown..... but then they bring home a little one of thier own, and it makes your heart soar all over again.
ReplyDeleteI love Jamie too, even though I've only met her twice (?). She and Aaron have 2 friends in California that they can always call on. Apparently I was a pill from about 12 on (perhaps still am), but I'm always trying to be better, and somehow my parents and I survived...so I know you will all be fine. Happy Birthday to Jamie!
ReplyDeleteThanks Margaret....I knew you when you from 87-91 and don't remember whether you were a pill or not? How old were you then?
ReplyDeletethat was it...10-14 :)
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